Chapter 1: My Decision to Get Sober

Three weeks ago, I made the decision to stop consuming alcohol. This has been a goal I’ve aimed to achieve for quite some time. Earlier this year, I had my best attempt in January when I took a two-week break for the New Year. Since then, my attempts have been inconsistent, often stopping and starting every few days. This cycle left me feeling frustrated and inadequate.

A significant reason for my struggle has been my reluctance to label myself an “alcoholic.” In my perception, that term applied only to those who drank from the moment they woke up and continued throughout the day. I only indulged in alcohol during the evenings and rarely on a daily basis, viewing myself as a moderate drinker who occasionally overindulged.

It's amusing how we can deceive ourselves, isn’t it?

The reality is that once I started drinking, I found it difficult to stop. It felt as though I lacked a "stop" mechanism. The following day, regardless of whether I was hungover, I would wake up feeling tired and anxious, criticizing myself for my lack of control. I would promise myself that this time I would truly quit.

Yet, it’s essential to recognize that alcohol is a drug. It is not only physically addictive but also deeply ingrained in the culture around me. It is often celebrated as a social enhancer. From a young age, I learned that it relieves stress, makes social interactions easier, and can enhance enjoyment. Scrolling through social media, it’s hard to miss the countless images of people beaming while holding drinks. The pervasive notion that alcohol is a vital part of life is everywhere, making it challenging to step back from it. Until three weeks ago, I was unable to do so.

The first video, "The One About Jumping On The Sober Train," dives into the challenges and triumphs of embracing sobriety, highlighting personal stories that resonate with many seeking change.

Day 22 of my sobriety journey.

As I reflect on this moment, I find that I’m not struggling as much as I initially anticipated. I feel fortunate to have encountered the right resources and support that have made this possible. Choosing not to drink feels empowering rather than a deprivation.

The initial days were indeed challenging. I found myself constantly checking my sobriety counter app, eagerly tracking the minutes, hours, and eventually days. Each daily milestone was a cause for celebration. After eight days, I joined an online support group. I hesitated before this step, as I was unsure of my ability to reach even a week without drinking, and I didn’t want to risk failing publicly. While I acknowledge that it’s still early in my journey, I increasingly believe that this is the right path for me—one that I intend to follow for a lifetime.

I no longer miss the hangovers, fatigue, irritability, or the anxiety of checking my messages in the morning to see if I had said something embarrassing. I certainly don’t miss the wasted calories, the money spent, or the hours lost to drinking.

Now, three weeks in, I am convinced that this was the best decision I could have made. Although I wish I had made this choice earlier in my life, I also recognize that it’s not my fault. Alcohol is an addictive substance that society continues to promote and celebrate.

To anyone else on a similar path, I believe our journey speaks volumes about our courage and individuality.

Chapter 2: Facing the Challenges of Addiction

The second video, "My Life Had Become Unmanageable," explores the impact of alcohol on daily life and the realization that change is necessary for a better future.