Title: Understanding the Impact of Trauma on Memory and Identity
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Chapter 1: The Struggles of Memory and Trauma
My mind feels fractured in numerous ways. The first significant disruption stemmed from enduring a lifetime of traumatic experiences, which I allowed to define my adult self.
The issues related to my cognitive struggles became prominent after my second concussion during high school. However, it wasn't until I reached my early 40s that I began to connect the dots.
I often find myself enjoying a piping hot cup of coffee, only to be interrupted by my racing thoughts:
🎶 "That's not my name." 🎶
This catchy tune plays in my head, drowning out the peacefulness I was trying to savor. It’s frustrating, especially as I recall why I often struggle in office environments and have developed nicknames for nearly everyone I interact with daily.
- Struggle. With. Names.
While I can remember some names, the majority seem to evade my long-term memory. I was frequently reminded that forgetting someone’s name was disrespectful, so I adapted by using nicknames.
Recently, at our local food pantry—where they have a fantastic food section available anytime—I encountered a familiar face, Susie. Unfortunately, I've mistakenly referred to her as AJ at least twice. I remember doing it, and I know I'll likely do it again.
Despite my ongoing challenges, I think I need to create some art to acknowledge this mix-up with her.
On top of that, my new doctor has recommended a different medication. To be honest, it feels like every drug I try has an adverse reaction with my body. Thankfully, it's not an allergy, so I plan to give this one a chance for a couple of months.
But, I digress—my song has ended, and the tranquility of my coffee moment is calling.
The first video, "The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name (Official Video)," showcases how identity can be shaped by external perceptions, similar to my struggles with memory and recognition.
Chapter 2: The Challenge of Remembering Names
In the second video, "The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name (Lyrics)," the lyrics delve into themes of identity and misrecognition, resonating with my own experiences of forgetting names and the emotional weight it carries.